so i took like 15mins to find last year's post of my new yr's resolutions and had to click on many january posts till i found it T_T to make it easier for the me next year i've decided on this title lol.

today's such a wasted day.

family went out to orchard to shop (i was still sleeping) and i was planning to study today but it's almost 6pm and i haven't done anything yet.........;_ ;

...i could have gone out with him today. :(

looking back at the year 2011, (sounds like the start of a typical 2011 review essay) it could have been a really mundane year..at the same time, it also could have been a really different year.

and 2011 for me was really mundane, as much as it was really different. (???????)

Jan - was feeling super stressed because jc's starting and it was time for me to go back to reality again.

Feb - orientation in sch, getting used to new people i'm gonna be with for the next 2 years.

also posted this pic on valentine's day and mentioned that i still can post it this year.
obviously i didn't know what was to come...:')

March - *found nothing interesting* oh my goddddddddd my life is so boring it's funny!!!
oh yeah, i think i couldn't get into the syf choir team and i felt really depressed and stuff. :(
but my singing has definitely improved though i can't say it's enough to get me into the syf team though there's no syf next year lol.

April - got a boyfriend.



my reaction too.

and i don't know what good deeds i've done in my past life to deserve him. *-*

May - watched kung fu panda 2 with the whole school.



first monthsary, made this cardboard thing ;_ ; and he didn't do anythinggggggggggg :(
he's just such a last minute kind of person, but during this "sw33tiepi3h0n3ym00n" period (it generally lasts from 3-6 months.. mine ended in 3-4 months.) i didn't seem to mind much.

in case you're curious, i read that there are generally 5 stages to every couple's relationship.

stage 1 - honeymoon (you'll feel intoxicated with love like you're in a fairy tale *-* wishes to go back to those times again!)

stage 2 - disillusionment (getting to know what you love about him, as well as what about him that annoys you)

stage 3 - power struggle (more fights)

stage 4 - stability (deeper feelings of love)

stage 5 - commitment (estimated that fewer than 5% of couples make it to this stage. it's about making a choice to be with him even though you know his flaws and stuff)

i think we're either in stage 2 or 3...but that's not to say that we quarrel all the time :D


June - heejang flew from canada and stopped by singapore on his way home to korea to visit me & deon! :D

also our first times visiting universal studios singapore. and i also met aaron.

July - started exploring parks with deon.

also went to zhuhai for this choir competition which we won for our category! :)

it's my first time going overseas without my parents! (and hopefully not my last)

Aug - "A person seen as a possession can never be seen for the full beauty of their character and spirit."

(lack of stuff to talk about so i'm just filling this month with a random quote that i posted in that month lololol)

Sep -

deon's birthday.

we booked a 3d2n chalet using money we got from selling sp stuff (so basically it's like we got it for free) andddd we had one of the best times of our lives. :)

(if only i didn't have to do my homework at the chalet too lolol)

Oct - had class bbq, felt freaking stressed and depressed about results!

Nov - definitely felt more free, though there's still pw.

Dec - basically spent lots of time with deon, and it's not on homework. :DDDDDDD
i'll definitely miss those times...

so as you can see, my life last year definitely was boring, yet...if i count the outings i had with friends, family and deon, it's not that boring afterall. in fact it made everything else worth going through.

anyway, time to review my new year resolutions i made last last yr (2010).

audi - er..... hope glk still exists :D? - failed, it exists yet it doesn't lol. (not that i have the time to touch audi at all though i did force deon to play hehe...unfortunately he only plays 'manly' games and is still a lvl 1 stiffy. or 2. lol.)
ksp - sun3!! and 50k coins. or 80k. *can't make up mind* - failed also. :(
self - eh........ah............um......... get rid of my 'phobia of the world' and maybe be less mean.. (but that is part of me!! T_T). i also need to give people presents and not just receive. ;_ ; and not be so lazy. (as you can see from this short resolution thing) - the phobia of the world isn't so bad now, so it's achieved! :D and i've been giving presents sometimes but not all the time, so this is only halfway done. :( and the lazy part...nope, i'm probably still as lazy.
studies - yes i am still going to put a lot of effort into everything!!! :D i hope i don't give up. jungmin will be my motivation. yes. ok. - halfway done. i almost wanted to give up but didn't, so that's completed. though jungmin isn't really my motivation now since SS501 is disbanded. :(.... i also can't keep up with news of him because of my studies...

yeah, i haven't done most of whatever random stuff i hoped to achieve in 2011. :(........
in hindsight i could say that i really didn't expect jc curriculum to be so taxing.
it's like you have no time for life!!111

anyway.......
my 2012 new year resolutions:

studies -

• studies must come first! it's already the last year, i should just go and push on all the way.

• don't be too shy to ask questions or go for consultations.

• i'm aiming for at least a B for every subject!

• don't give up.

love -

• don't give up on love in my pursuit for studies, no matter how hard it is...or how distant we'd be this year.
• take even just a few minutes to text him just before i sleep.
• go overseas with him.
  

self -

• learn ways to keep myself from falling asleep
• not be too hard on myself for being unsociable
• gather the courage to tell my mum about him
• don't be lazy
  

ending off with a picture of this baby i fell in love with (and usually i don't like babies) about 2 years ago!:
saw it at precious memories/thoughts and it cost $50. wonders if it's still being sold now... :(